Useless

There comes a point where I wish that I felt valuable. That when I commit to working on a project that I have the potential to excel at, my contributions aren't minimized. That I'm not told to just go away because I'm in the way.

There is a project that I had committed to helping with months ago. It recently started, and despite those around me encouraging me to give my best contribution, I was literally told to GO AWAY. The one person I'm supposed to be working with tells me that I'm useless and in the way.

I don't know how to react except to feel hurt. I had actually been committed to this project since March. I was even willing to take the lead on it, but I wanted/ needed help. It was passed along to someone with a different skill set. I was told that I would still be able to help, and that what I could give to the project was important.

The person who told me to go away is someone who is very close to me, and someone who I trust with my life. I'm not sure if he is afraid that I will get hurt physically by working on this, but his response to me hurts emotionally and that is where I am much more vulnerable.

I'm sure that God is working in this somehow, I just don't see it at the moment.